wow this blog is basically dead.

hi.

i;m alive.

yeet.

i'm not gonna post on here anymore

you can follow my instagram @happy.little.pill._ because i'll probably post on there more.

also i got my hair cut and bleached so yeah.

alright.

bye.

life updates and stuffffffffffffffff

grace's schedule:

-crawl into the depths of australian schooling

-cry

-think about depressing stuff

-come out of the depths of australian schooling

-write a bunch of trash jumbled up together

-sleep

-crawl back into the depths of australian schooling.

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WELL WOULD YA LOOK AT THAT.

I'M ACTUALLY ALIVE.

WOOT.

anyway.

hi.

how are you all?

how's school treating you guys?

today i bring to you some life updates, because i'm really tired and i have nothing else to post.

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school: school is treating me like ass.i have about 5 projects that i have to complete and ghalf of them are group projects (ughhhh), plus on top of that i have homework and i have to practice my clarinet. send helppppp.

lgbtq+: after coming out as pan, i've been way more open about my sexuality, and the great thing is that australia is having a marrige equality vote thingy and YEET. it's on october 1st and my older brother is driving me and my sister 8 1/2 hours from adelaide to melbourne for it and I'M SO EXCITED AHHHHH.

band: Y'ALL WE PLAYED A PTV SONG IN BAND ONE CLASS AND I DID THE WHOLE SONG WITHOUT DYING BE PROUD OF ME.

music: so i may or may not be into knuckle puck and set it off now...? whoops.

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whelp. that's it.
do you guys want to see photos of the equality thingy? maybe? lmao.

-grace

20 random and really horrible facts about me because why the frick not

 

look at ya girl back at it with the song lyrics aye.

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see i told you i would make a post that's not a bunch of crap jumbled up together.

enjoy.

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-i currently kinda have a crush on princess peach from super mario. idk why. help.

-my pronouns- for anyone curious- are she/her
-i have never worn perfume. ever.
-i have never read the harry potter series. DON'T SUE ME. *dodges all the rocks and magic wands and books being thrown at me*
-i'm allergic to walnuts and seafood. xD
-i have cosplayed as gerard way from the black parade era and the danger days era, and i'm planning on doing the three cheers for sweet revenge era next.
-i don't like the stuff from bvb, but i like andy's solo stuff. is that weird? i feel like it is.
-i am now complete and utter hamilton trash. rip my life.
-i use a canon rebel t3i (it's a really good camera btw)
-i have never been on tumblr before about a week ago. i'm vv pathetic, i know.
-i'm always broke because i keep chipping my clarinet reeds BECAUSE FUCK YOU BRACES
-i s2g i'm nocturnal or something. i barely get enough sleep
-i used to like american girl dolls xD i was so lame back in 2014 tbh.
- i ate soap once. sorry crankthatfrank.
-lynn gunn is my wife hands off.
-i have cooked any food that requires a stove or an oven. i have the cooking skill of my mum, and she has no skill whatsoever.
-i hate chocolate chip cookies xD i'm a monster, i know.
-i don't like regular flavored potato crisps (or potato chips, for those u.s. folks out there).
-i have a pan flag and i like to bring it to school to yell "I'M PAN AND PROUD" in the hallways.
 -i go to an all-girls school, and when 90% of the school is on their periods it's bloody hell (literally)

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i'm so lame rip.
leave post ideas.
it's 1am i need to sleep.
so yeah.

~grace

dear older me..

 

oh hi.

if you're not dead already, then you can probably read this.

most likely.

and if you're dead, then idk how to help you with that.

how are you?
still depressed, i assume?
yeah i feel like you still are.

how's mum? did she give birth again?
and how's ryan and alexis? did they come back from university yet? (if ryan even went to university.)

did dad ever text you about another u.s. visit? if so, did you go? how was it?

you still friends with madi, kaitlin, and cody? and what about mckenzie.. still dating them (look i even used their correct pronouns be proud of your younger self)?

 what about the futuristic bands you might've gotten into? IS 5SOS STILL ALIVE??

did you know- hospitals are absolute crap. they really are.
especially the drugs and medication they give you. no matter what meds or drugs they give you, it makes you feel drowsy and i, personally, fall asleep within 5minutes of taking them.
lol there goes my life during the day rip.

in other news, i started school a while ago and i triggered someone with my leg scars.
now i have to wear pants with my school uniform to "ensure the safety of all out students".
and australia's heat sucksssssssss.
you would know, right?

well, it's 5:17am and i should be asleep.
gn my lovely older self.

xo grace.

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heyo peoplesssss!

i'm in the hospital again.
help me.

you see, about a week ago i got new depression meds. and they work (thank god), but it came with some "side effects". well i ended up getting a headache after taking them and whenever i would take them, the headache would get worse. i thought about not taking them to make the headache go away, but i need the pills so i can actually function like a normal person.
well the headache got so bad that it turned into a FREAKING MIGRAINE and my mom, being the overprotective shitbag she is, thought that "something could be seriously wrong" with me, and she rushed me to the hospital.

i'm getting out in about a week though, so that's good.

but all the meds the doctors give me. oh my god.
they make me so fucking drowsy and within five minutes of taking them, i end up falling asleep and i pretty much sleep for most of the day.

so that's great.

clinical depression is shit, btw.

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also guess who started reading the harry potter series?

this pansexual alien!

i know, i have seriously never read the series before.
please don't sue me.
i'm broke as actual frick.

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it's almost 5:30am i need to sleep.

gn mates. see ya.

~grace

my casual (and pretty messed up, if i do say so myself) google search history!

 

i want this on my bedroom wall.

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hey peoples! (i'm trying to think of a "official" name for you peeps.. lol) last night while i was up all night CONTEMPLATING MY EXISTENCE AND MY WILL TO LIVE AND HOW WE HAVE TO BE ALIVE AND IF WE'RE JUST A LITTLE PIECE OF DUST IN THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERES AND WHY UNICORNS AREN'T REAL and i was watching phil lester's google search history video, and i was like "well i google the most random stuff when i'm bored so why the fuck not do it here! that would be fun! then everyone will ask me wtf i do with my life when i'm not thinking about death! yay!" so yeah.

i just realized that was a long run-on sentence sorry for those english geeks who are cringing at that xD

i'm only doing the past couple times because i have to go to sleep soon but whatever who needs sleep.

anyway, let's begin!

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TODAY, 7:52 AM- 3:30 PM

world war II (for history class)

are aliens alive? (idfk either)

why do i have flabby legs? (my friend kaitlin wanted me to google that)

how to resist popping pimples (?)

blink-182 (bc i'm a basic fuckgirl)

hamilton (i'm becoming hamilton trash rippp)

AUGUST 18, 2017

why am i a failure? (a question we ask ourselves every day amirite)

I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE (bc mcr)

colors (i wanted to see if the halsey song would pop up.. it didn't xD)

sassy pickle 

sass queen

instagram spacers

AUGUST 7, 2017

how to fall asleep fast

do i have asmr? (lol i wanted to see if i have it.. i do apparently)

rain gifs

pickles (i like pickles btw)

ronnie radke

tumblr aesthetic 

fairy lights

pansexual flags

awsten knight

AUGUST 6, 2017

suicide helplines

which is better- siri or cortana?

art

cats

fuzzy socks

dan and phil transparent (it's for my tumblr profile pic)

lane boi

jack barakat's snapchat

more cats

the summer set

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this took me four hours to type i shit u not.

and now i've gotta get ready for hell school.

see ya later kids

~grace

i like trains.

me: *sits around eating my beautiful pistachio muffin*

my sister: *running down stairs* necK DEEP'S NEW ALBUM IS OUT TODAY YEET YEET YEET 

(an accurate example of what happened this morning)

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i just realized that i type all my posts at like 1am.

oops..?

tbh idk what to even blog about anymore.

it;s like:

summer 2016- oh yes i need to do this post and this post and this post and yeah boiiiii!!

summer 2017- oh wow i actually have a blog. shocker.

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things i really hate about my school:

-the uniforms

-the fact that it's an all girls school, so when there's multiple girls on their periods it's living hell.

-LUNCH. i always feel like i'm gonna have some random panic attack there, so i always bring my lunch to the library and eat in there. xD

-how strict my school is. like, i can't wear down or paint my nails bright colors or have rainbow colors in my hair.

-the headmaster is a rude bitch.

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my gf sucked me into the depths of tumblr.

please help me.

(follow me on there because i'm lame and need friends- phansexual-pinetree )

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i got more antidepressants a couple days ago.

KILL ME. 

i have like five different antidepressants that i take every day, and on top of that i have sleeping pills, other prescription meds, and cold medicine (because being sick is fun.. no it's not).

ahaha i'm trying to resist the urge to overdose again i need help.

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tomorrow i promise i'll actually make a good post that's not just some shit bundled up together.

~grace

i got g-noted at 2am / grace rambles about life

 

 

 

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hi hey helloooooooooooooooooo

i'm tired.

it's 1am.

help me.

i started school today.

ugh.

like, normally i'm okay with school, but my school is hellllllllllllll on earthhhhh

we have uniforms with short skirts, and every three weeks we have a "school assembly" and we just talk about the things we've been learning and UGH.

someone please let me move in with them.

the only good thing about it is our art teacher's room- it's very tumblr aesthetic, with tapestries and fairy lights and succulents everywhere and it's so TUMBLR. 

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so how's life for you guys? any of you started hell school yet?

life has been okay for me, i have a PET scan in a couple days and i've been sick nd had a headache for a couple days but we have no painkillers at our house, because a) i'm not allowed to have pills in my room (bc of my last suicide attempt) and b) my mom will legit rush me to the hospital if she finds out i have a headache ("because there might be something seriously wrong with you!!1!one!!") >.<

i have a really overprotective mom.

 

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i've been reading a lot, and i feel like i should do a book post or something soon (yeah grace doing a book post that's rare) so yeah.

 

it's now 3:33am and i need sleep. xD

 

-grace

 

songs i really need to stop obsessing over #5

 

kick me- sleeping with sirens // pity party- melanie martinez // cancer- my chemical romance // all time low- jon bellion // deathbeds- bring me the horizon // wrecking ball- august burns red // peace song- never shout never // don't play- halsey // heartbreak girl- five seconds of summer // young volcanoes- fall out boy // white noise- pvris // chemical kids and mechanical brides- pierce the veil // caught like a fly- falling in reverse // champion- fall out boy // shape of you- our last night // dirty laundry- all time low // let the flames begin- paramore // the good, the bad, and the dirty- panic! at the disco //

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i saved someone's life today.
i'm so proud.

you see, i'm a listener on a website called 7 cups of tea, and on there you can talk to people about your problems, and it's honestly a great website.
anyway, so there was this girl i was talking to who was thinking on ending her life- and i actually convinced her not to do it.
if only i could try and save my own life..
oh well.

if you ever need to talk to me on 7 cups, my username is mxdhxtter. ;)

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leave post ideas down in the comments please and thank youuuuuuuuuu
i'm gonna do another draw my life soon, this time it'll be way better than my other one xD

xo grace

[don't cut for the cats]

the floor is crippling depression.

a while ago me and my brother had a little "celebration" for the 4th of july.. i know, i live in australia, but technically i was a legal u.s. citizen for 7 years of my life so.. yeah.

here are some really bad quality iphone photos of our fireworks ;)

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it's literally so cold like wtf. 

i literally have on a sweater, i'm covered in three blankets, and the heater in my room is on.

ugh.

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i'm getting new depression meds today (on top of all my other prescriptions) and i don't want them.

yet we have everyone saying "it's for your own good!", when i have FOUR DIFFERENT DEPRESSION MEDS.

ugh.

help me.

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this morning i woke up and a bird was by the window and i took some photos of it.

i was messing around with my camera's zoom so that's why the branches look close.

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HOW DO Y'ALL LIKE MY NEW BLOG DESIGN? lol. i figured it was time for a change-i had that old one for almost two years- so yeah.

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i'm so bored right now, if you have my instagram dm me because i wanna talk about random stuff.

-grace

dear..

(bonus photo of my sister's cat)

i'm tired, i got like 0 sleep last night because i kept having panic at the disco attacks and agh.

so today i'm going to be doing this thing that i saw floating around the blogging comm a while back but i don't remember the link to the original author/post, so if y'all can give me the link to it if you can find it that would be greattttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

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dear mum,
STOP HAVING TOO MANY KIDS. you gave birth two days ago, and this is your 6TH KID jesus.
(at least i won't be the middle child anymore xD)

dear ryan,
stop coming home high. please. our house smells like weed now thanks to you.

dear alexis,
your hair is still brighter than my future.
(also sTOP PLAYING YOUR TRUMPET AT TWO AM !!111!! it annoys the living crap out of me.)

dear government,
RYDEN IS REAL

dear madi,
no, we are not doing "deepthroat" for our animation class. why are you like this.

dear mason,
you're still getting the grape juice, and that's final. I AM YOUR MOTHER DEAL WITH IT.
but ily bbyg (or boy. i still don't know your gender)

dear kaitlin,
we need to go skating again. i promise i'll wear that flannel you bought me.

dear bands i listen to,
you've saved my life so, so so , so many times and i love you all. (please don't break up like mcr did)

dear everyone on here,
thank you all so much for supporting me through everything life has put my way. ily all as well.

dear cats,
lynn, phaniel, and viktuuri, please stop digging your claws into my leg when you lay in my lap.

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i'm gonna go to bed now.
gn mates, and if you ever need to chat, send me a message (instagram, email, etc.) and i'll reply as soon as possible.

~grace

[don't cut for the cats]

07.11.17

well hey there.

i'm actually alive.

it's a miracle, eh?

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i did it again.

i tried to kill myself

again

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i did it because my mum and dad were fighting over the phone and my two older siblings who live with me weren't home and i had no one to talk to, plus i can't stand fights at all, and i tried to kill myself..

 

 i overdosed on pills and my sister when she came home found out and rushed me to the hospital (my mum was at a bar when my sis came home) and i was in an opioid-induced coma for a couple days and the doctors thought i was done but i woke up yesterday from the coma and, well, here i am.

 

 i'm still in the hospital but i should be out within a week or so.

 

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i'm so stupid.

i did it and i regret it completely.

and i did it when the solution could've just been talking to my parents or using a coping method.

god i'm so fricking dumb.

 

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i'm sorry for being this way, guys.

you guys do nice things for me- volunteering to talk to me when i need help, supporting me no matter what, etc- and all i do in return is try and kill myself.

i'm so stupid.

 

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i don't know if i'm gonna be okay.

ever since the beginning of june, it feels like i've been on an emotional rollercoaster that only went down.

i cut too many times, i tried to overdose, i actually did overdose, i was put on suicide watch, i got depression meds (god i hate those things. i already take enough meds already + sleeping pills), i haven't slept much the past couple weeks, i haven't had any appetite.. 

i need help guys.

i really do.

 

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i'm sorry i made you read this.

 

~grace

40 things i'm grateful for

i honestly should've posted this on thanksgiving but pfft whatever

 

(songs: eyelids, mirrors, and ghosts by pvris)

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so my older brother decided to take me to an actual therapist (wow what) and so my therapist during one session asked me just out of the blue what i was grateful for (yeah i know that was a run-on sentence and my english teacher would disapprove {sorry mr. land} but life is short so let's go with it.) and we were talking, and i decided to make this post because why the heck not.

enjoy this while it lasts, kids. i don't do this type of post much. xD

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1. this blog
2. -everyone here in the blogging comm who has supported me through all the crap life put my way. ily all. <3
3. -my ex-boyfriend, warren, for not only making me hop onto his back on our way to our classes but also being there when i need it.
4. -my best australian friends, maddie, kaitlin, and cody (who is a girl btw. just saying)
5. -my best (and only) u.s. friend, izzy
6. -my older brother for casually driving me around to wherever i need to go
7. -my older sister. pain in the ass with that trumpet but you gotta love her.
8. -yuri on ice because who doesn't love gay anime characters skating am i right
9. -the fitnessgram pacer test (ahaha GOD NO)
10. -the friends resturant in perth WA, australia because the view there is amazing. oh and the chicken alfredo is delicious
11. -the doctors/nurses who took care of me while i was in the hospital because i probably would be dead rn if it wasn't for them.
12. -the person who made a 10-hour loop of "let's do the fork in the garbage disposal"
13. my chemical romance so i can cry "ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS MCR TO GET BACK TOGETHER" in december.
14. -hot topic for their band merch selection
15. -my guitar
16. -JISHWAAAAA
17. -taco bell saga. xD
18. -otaku lyrics because why not
19. - steven universe for their representation of gay pride
20. -the teacher at my school named mr. urie
21. -eyelinerrrrrrrrr
22. -my glasses, i kinda need them to see xD
23. -youtube
24.  bands on crack
25. my depression pills. that way i won't end up depressed and wanting to kill myself xD
26. sour cream and onion chips. yum
27. |-/
28. CATS. don't cut for the cats guys. please
29. andy black, for being hot and having good music
30. izzy/mason and kailee, the two other members of my collab musical.ly sped up account
31. my sister, again, for making me emo trash. 
32. my girlfriend. ily bbyg <3
33. @.disaster.ology._  on instagram because her photgraphy is amazing + she's a sweet girl in general.
34. my younger siblings (hayden and mike) for being cute and little and smol and just cute.
35. the color green
36. flowers
37. troye sivan
38. COCONUT SHARKS IN THE WATERRRR
39. also taco bell saga
40. sugar cookies. yum.

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this took so long to make oops. 

thank you guys so much for reading this piece of trash.

ALSO i want to do a "check" to see if anyone still reads this blog, comment something really random if you're reading this. 

PLUS i might be re-designing my blog.. yeet!

~grace

anyway, here's wonderwall.

cats!!!

my family used to have 5, but two died last week. 

we had a funeral for them in our backyard under the swingset that i fell and screwed up my fake leg on xD

oh great times.

btw the cat in the first, third, and fourth photo is my cat (viktori {and yes, i named him after the viktor/yuri ship}), the one in the second is my sister's cat (lynn, after lynn gunn from pvris), the one in the 5th photo is my older brother's cat (phaniel, after dan + phil) and the one in the last two is a stray we feed outside our house but we're planning on taking it in (idk what to name it, leave suggestions).

i have a horrible headache and i wanna take some advil and nap but i can't because my mom waNTS ME TO CLEAN AND I DON'T WANT TO. 

U G H H H H H

enjoy my horrible post lmao sorry.

~grace

coming out + the one lovely blogger award

 
BEFORE WE BEGIN

i just wanted to come out and say i'm pansexual.

and no, i don't have a sexual attraction to frying pans, for those wondering.

plus, i have a gilrfriend now so yanno, that's fun.

anyway, i kinda tagged myself for the the one lovely blogger award on nabila's blog. so let's get started!

RULES:

1. compose a post based on the award

2. nominate no more than 15 bloggers to participate

3. Share 7 facts about yourself (i'm doing 20 because 7 isn't enough)

4. let your nominees know they have been tagged

THE FACTS:

1. my favorite book is the fault in our stars by john green
2. twenty one pilots is my favorite band, followed by pvris, troye sivan, and pierce the veil
3. i don't like a band's newest stuff, idk why.
4. i have 35 pieces of band merch
5. i have had a boyfriend, and i have a girlfriend right now
6. i am proud to suppor the lgbtq+ community *waves a flag around like maniac*
7. i live in sydney, australia
8. i play the guitar and hope to open a guitar cover channel on youtube
9. i have had fifteen therapists in my lifetime
10. i am a "listener" on a website called 7 cups of tea
11. i am a cancer survivor
12. my top five favorite songs at the moment are "madness" by sleeping with sirens, "little game" by benny, "fire" by pvris, "do re mi" by blackbear, and "baby don't cut" by bmike.
13. i am originally a brunette, but i have a red-orange wig
14. i CANNOT stand the band set it off for some reason. like, idk what it is lol.
15. i actually have the australian suicide prevention hotline on speed dial oops.
16. i can skateboard, credit to my friend kaitlin.
17. i can also speak french and a tinnnnny bit of korean (creds to BTS)
18. i have an iphone 5s. i mean it's better than my old iphone 4 xD
19. i wear glasses
20. i took a diversity quiz and apparantly i'm 100% white xD

i'm sorry i'm lame. 

ANYWAY i'm running out of post ideas help me mates. 

~grace

just a random post of songs i can't stop listening to #4

 

car radio- twenty one pilots // helena- my chemical romance // play date- melanie martinez // mr. brightside- the killers // centuries- fall out boy // smoke- pvris // red balloon- never shout never // true friends- bring me the horizon //

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yesterday i finished a big french quiz and got a perfect score on it i feel proud.
also i completed a new guitar cover! it's a cover of "peace song" by never shout never.

i'm sorry i'm lame don't kill me.

~grace

growing up; a poem by me

 

“you know, you get to live life once

you’re here for a reason, you know

everyone lives through dark times

it’s actually what makes your soul mature

kind of a part of growing up

have hope for future

fun part starts after 18, you know

and you’re so young

you still have plenty of time to work things up

when i’m with my therapist and i’m depressed, he always asks me, “grace, what are your plans for future? your dreams, wishes?”

i reply with the same thing each time, “to meet pvris, pierce the veil, twenty one pilots, and all the other bands i listen to and tell them how much their music has kept me alive.”

“I think you already have a reason to stay alive, kid.” my therapist always replies. “just stay alive for me, and you’ll meet them one day, got it, kid?”

 

be safe friend. it’s gonna be okay |-/” 

-a small piece from my nanowrimo piece, life poetry

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i haven’t posted in a while wow i deserve a gold star. i feel so proud of myself.

  

honestly me with posting xD

anyway so about two or three weeks ago i was in the hospital.

it was nothing serious, just a checkup, a PET scan (to look for cancer tumors), and the fact i slipped and fell while trying to take a shower and my back hurt like crazy

thankfully, there were no new tumors, and my back’s not broken, which is good.

anyway so while i was going through the PET scan, my therapist was there with me, and everytime i’m anxious or depressed, he asks what my future goals are, and i reply with the same thing every time.

so after the scan, while waiting for my results, i ended up writing the poem above, and i realized something: my english teacher, mr. land, likes to challenge us with nanowrimo, and i decided to sign up, and pretty much my book is going to be a bunch of poems about my life and yee i’m sO EXCITED!!

i need to sleep guys. i have to get up early tomorrow morning for school, since i have play practice (i’m in my school’s production of teen beach movie, and i’m the lead role of mack) so.

see ya guys! i’ll try to post more, i promise.

~grace

4.10.2017

 

sometimes it's a battle
at times it's a war
but you're never defenseless...
sometimes we all lose strength
please don't lose your faith
after our time has passed
we're like light through stained glass
we go on and on and on
in the end we're never gone...

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i hate my depression i really do.

in all honesty, i just wanna end my life right now.

thank god i'm on a school break because i can't stand school- or anything, for that matter- right now ugh.

someone talk to me because i need to talk to someone and it's literally like 5 a.m. where i am and i'm home alone ugh.

i'l leave now bye.

~grace

just a random post filled with songs i can't stop listening to at the moment #3

 

ghost- halsey // social casualty- five seconds of summer // semi-automatic- twenty one pilots // girls- the 1975 // youth- troye sivan // my house- pvris // tag, you're it- melanie martinez // i don't care- fall out boy // born for this- paramore // all signs point to lauderdale- a day to remember // to live and let go- all time low // vapor- five seconds of summer // fire- sleeping with sirens // closer- the chainsmokers (feat. halsey) // idfc (acoustic)- blackbear // she's out of her mind- blink-182 //

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I MEET 5SOS YESTERDAY I'M CRYING
THE REST OF 2017 IS INVALID
I HONESTLY WANT TO SHOW A PICTURE BUT I'M TYPING THIS IN A SCHOOL BATHROOM SO I CAN'T BUT STILL.
australia has its perks, because there's 5sos and cacti and stuff.

oh and fun fact: i got food poisoning from a taco bell chalupa.
don't eat at a taco bell in australia kids.
life lesson.

i should leave bye

waKE ME UP INSIDE.

(^song: vapor by five seconds of summer^)

i can't sleep again.

it's 5,in the morning and somehow i can't sleep.

congrats to me.

 

so yesterday my friend kaitlin taught me how to skateboard.

i fell like four times but in the end, me, kaitlin, and our other friend maddie were riding around town yelling song lyrics

kaitlin dared me to skate up to people and yell, "F*CK ME IN THE A*S" lmao fun.

oh and apparently my sister is gay, and she didn't know my friends were at our house so she had on some getup (like idubbz if anyone knows him), got up on the kitchen counter, and yelled "I'M GAY!" and i'm pretty sure everyone died inside
but it was hilarious, she fell off the counter and there's a small spot of blood from her fall but whatever.
my family's weird.

and guYS THERE'S ACTUALLY A TEACHER AT MY SCHOOL NAMED MR. URIE AND HE'S THE CHORUS TEACHER AT MY SCHOOL AND HE HAS A FOREHEAD BIGGER THAN BRENDON URIE'S FOREHEAD AND HE'S A GOOD SINGER JUST LIKE BRENDON I'M STARTING TO QUESTION MY LIFE EXISTENCE WHY MUST MY SCHOOL DO THIS TO ME.
thanks swams (the abbreviation for my school btw.), thanks for making me question life and my existence. xD


i should probably get up and fail to shower to get ready for school.
nah who am i kidding i'm staying home 'cause i need sleep lol xD

~grace