20 random and really horrible facts about me because why the frick not

 

look at ya girl back at it with the song lyrics aye.

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see i told you i would make a post that's not a bunch of crap jumbled up together.

enjoy.

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-i currently kinda have a crush on princess peach from super mario. idk why. help.

-my pronouns- for anyone curious- are she/her
-i have never worn perfume. ever.
-i have never read the harry potter series. DON'T SUE ME. *dodges all the rocks and magic wands and books being thrown at me*
-i'm allergic to walnuts and seafood. xD
-i have cosplayed as gerard way from the black parade era and the danger days era, and i'm planning on doing the three cheers for sweet revenge era next.
-i don't like the stuff from bvb, but i like andy's solo stuff. is that weird? i feel like it is.
-i am now complete and utter hamilton trash. rip my life.
-i use a canon rebel t3i (it's a really good camera btw)
-i have never been on tumblr before about a week ago. i'm vv pathetic, i know.
-i'm always broke because i keep chipping my clarinet reeds BECAUSE FUCK YOU BRACES
-i s2g i'm nocturnal or something. i barely get enough sleep
-i used to like american girl dolls xD i was so lame back in 2014 tbh.
- i ate soap once. sorry crankthatfrank.
-lynn gunn is my wife hands off.
-i have cooked any food that requires a stove or an oven. i have the cooking skill of my mum, and she has no skill whatsoever.
-i hate chocolate chip cookies xD i'm a monster, i know.
-i don't like regular flavored potato crisps (or potato chips, for those u.s. folks out there).
-i have a pan flag and i like to bring it to school to yell "I'M PAN AND PROUD" in the hallways.
 -i go to an all-girls school, and when 90% of the school is on their periods it's bloody hell (literally)

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i'm so lame rip.
leave post ideas.
it's 1am i need to sleep.
so yeah.

~grace

dear older me..

 

oh hi.

if you're not dead already, then you can probably read this.

most likely.

and if you're dead, then idk how to help you with that.

how are you?
still depressed, i assume?
yeah i feel like you still are.

how's mum? did she give birth again?
and how's ryan and alexis? did they come back from university yet? (if ryan even went to university.)

did dad ever text you about another u.s. visit? if so, did you go? how was it?

you still friends with madi, kaitlin, and cody? and what about mckenzie.. still dating them (look i even used their correct pronouns be proud of your younger self)?

 what about the futuristic bands you might've gotten into? IS 5SOS STILL ALIVE??

did you know- hospitals are absolute crap. they really are.
especially the drugs and medication they give you. no matter what meds or drugs they give you, it makes you feel drowsy and i, personally, fall asleep within 5minutes of taking them.
lol there goes my life during the day rip.

in other news, i started school a while ago and i triggered someone with my leg scars.
now i have to wear pants with my school uniform to "ensure the safety of all out students".
and australia's heat sucksssssssss.
you would know, right?

well, it's 5:17am and i should be asleep.
gn my lovely older self.

xo grace.

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heyo peoplesssss!

i'm in the hospital again.
help me.

you see, about a week ago i got new depression meds. and they work (thank god), but it came with some "side effects". well i ended up getting a headache after taking them and whenever i would take them, the headache would get worse. i thought about not taking them to make the headache go away, but i need the pills so i can actually function like a normal person.
well the headache got so bad that it turned into a FREAKING MIGRAINE and my mom, being the overprotective shitbag she is, thought that "something could be seriously wrong" with me, and she rushed me to the hospital.

i'm getting out in about a week though, so that's good.

but all the meds the doctors give me. oh my god.
they make me so fucking drowsy and within five minutes of taking them, i end up falling asleep and i pretty much sleep for most of the day.

so that's great.

clinical depression is shit, btw.

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also guess who started reading the harry potter series?

this pansexual alien!

i know, i have seriously never read the series before.
please don't sue me.
i'm broke as actual frick.

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it's almost 5:30am i need to sleep.

gn mates. see ya.

~grace

my casual (and pretty messed up, if i do say so myself) google search history!

 

i want this on my bedroom wall.

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hey peoples! (i'm trying to think of a "official" name for you peeps.. lol) last night while i was up all night CONTEMPLATING MY EXISTENCE AND MY WILL TO LIVE AND HOW WE HAVE TO BE ALIVE AND IF WE'RE JUST A LITTLE PIECE OF DUST IN THE CENTER OF THE UNIVERES AND WHY UNICORNS AREN'T REAL and i was watching phil lester's google search history video, and i was like "well i google the most random stuff when i'm bored so why the fuck not do it here! that would be fun! then everyone will ask me wtf i do with my life when i'm not thinking about death! yay!" so yeah.

i just realized that was a long run-on sentence sorry for those english geeks who are cringing at that xD

i'm only doing the past couple times because i have to go to sleep soon but whatever who needs sleep.

anyway, let's begin!

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TODAY, 7:52 AM- 3:30 PM

world war II (for history class)

are aliens alive? (idfk either)

why do i have flabby legs? (my friend kaitlin wanted me to google that)

how to resist popping pimples (?)

blink-182 (bc i'm a basic fuckgirl)

hamilton (i'm becoming hamilton trash rippp)

AUGUST 18, 2017

why am i a failure? (a question we ask ourselves every day amirite)

I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE (bc mcr)

colors (i wanted to see if the halsey song would pop up.. it didn't xD)

sassy pickle 

sass queen

instagram spacers

AUGUST 7, 2017

how to fall asleep fast

do i have asmr? (lol i wanted to see if i have it.. i do apparently)

rain gifs

pickles (i like pickles btw)

ronnie radke

tumblr aesthetic 

fairy lights

pansexual flags

awsten knight

AUGUST 6, 2017

suicide helplines

which is better- siri or cortana?

art

cats

fuzzy socks

dan and phil transparent (it's for my tumblr profile pic)

lane boi

jack barakat's snapchat

more cats

the summer set

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this took me four hours to type i shit u not.

and now i've gotta get ready for hell school.

see ya later kids

~grace

i like trains.

me: *sits around eating my beautiful pistachio muffin*

my sister: *running down stairs* necK DEEP'S NEW ALBUM IS OUT TODAY YEET YEET YEET 

(an accurate example of what happened this morning)

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i just realized that i type all my posts at like 1am.

oops..?

tbh idk what to even blog about anymore.

it;s like:

summer 2016- oh yes i need to do this post and this post and this post and yeah boiiiii!!

summer 2017- oh wow i actually have a blog. shocker.

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things i really hate about my school:

-the uniforms

-the fact that it's an all girls school, so when there's multiple girls on their periods it's living hell.

-LUNCH. i always feel like i'm gonna have some random panic attack there, so i always bring my lunch to the library and eat in there. xD

-how strict my school is. like, i can't wear down or paint my nails bright colors or have rainbow colors in my hair.

-the headmaster is a rude bitch.

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my gf sucked me into the depths of tumblr.

please help me.

(follow me on there because i'm lame and need friends- phansexual-pinetree )

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i got more antidepressants a couple days ago.

KILL ME. 

i have like five different antidepressants that i take every day, and on top of that i have sleeping pills, other prescription meds, and cold medicine (because being sick is fun.. no it's not).

ahaha i'm trying to resist the urge to overdose again i need help.

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tomorrow i promise i'll actually make a good post that's not just some shit bundled up together.

~grace

i got g-noted at 2am / grace rambles about life

 

 

 

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hi hey helloooooooooooooooooo

i'm tired.

it's 1am.

help me.

i started school today.

ugh.

like, normally i'm okay with school, but my school is hellllllllllllll on earthhhhh

we have uniforms with short skirts, and every three weeks we have a "school assembly" and we just talk about the things we've been learning and UGH.

someone please let me move in with them.

the only good thing about it is our art teacher's room- it's very tumblr aesthetic, with tapestries and fairy lights and succulents everywhere and it's so TUMBLR. 

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so how's life for you guys? any of you started hell school yet?

life has been okay for me, i have a PET scan in a couple days and i've been sick nd had a headache for a couple days but we have no painkillers at our house, because a) i'm not allowed to have pills in my room (bc of my last suicide attempt) and b) my mom will legit rush me to the hospital if she finds out i have a headache ("because there might be something seriously wrong with you!!1!one!!") >.<

i have a really overprotective mom.

 

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i've been reading a lot, and i feel like i should do a book post or something soon (yeah grace doing a book post that's rare) so yeah.

 

it's now 3:33am and i need sleep. xD

 

-grace