thoughts during chemo #3

• why do i listen to only two bring me the horizon songs  but i can't get off my lazy ass and listen to more of their songs?
• why is pokemon go popular? 
• am i the only person here who has snapchat but doesn't use it because i have no friends?
• why was josh naked in the one the summer set video where they were doing a cover of "you belong with me" by taylor swift?
• why am i always broke?
• why did mydigitalescape break up????
• can i get dan and phil to come and visit me one day? probably not but whatever.
• WHY DOES AMAZON HAVE DON'T PANIC IT'S LONGER NOW PRICED AS FUCKING $80????
• how come my mom is the same age as gerard way?
• WHERE CAN I GET A PURPLE DILDO???
• can i have more band merch?
• what's up with my stupid phone IT WON'T LET ME TEXT ANYONE. UPDATE: my bill needs to be paid so yay me.
• BUT THAT T-SHIRT WAS ON THE SITE LAST MONTH WHY IS THAT RED KICK ME SHIRT FROM HOT TOPIC NOT ON THE SITE ANYMORE????????
• so why did i think kellin quinn was a girl? why? am i just a stupid motherfucker who can't figure it out*?
• why does vic yell, "TONY!!!!" in "floral and fading"?

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pain. suffering. DEATH. 

probably not the most comforting choice of words for a ten-year-old but whatever. those are the three words that currently describe my life now. 

 can i fall asleep here that would be grEAT THANKS.

anyway, so i have a question for you guys. 

why do i have no friends? like i have one but that's it. xD

also can i have a llama as a pet?

~grace~