{better off dead}

 

she says she wants to end it all when she's all alone in her room
she cries
the way she feels inside is too much for her
when all you got is these four walls
it's not that hard to feel so small
or even exist at all
how come no one heard her when she said 

 

maybe i'm better off dead
if i was would it finally be enough
to shut out all those voices in my head?
maybe i'm better off dead
better off dead!
did you hear a word
hear a word i said?
this is not where i belong
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone
gone, gone
this is not where i belong
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone 

 

she doesn't know she's beautiful
because no one's ever told her so
and the demons that she has are all she knows
and maybe she can fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust
and tell her she's enough (have someone tell her she's enough)
how come no one heard her when she said 

 

maybe i'm better off dead
if i was would it finally be enough
to shut out all those voices in my head?
maybe i'm better off dead
better off dead!
did you hear a word
hear a word i said?
this is not where i belong
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone
gone, gone
this is not where i belong
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone

 

when all you got is these four walls
it's not hard to feel so small
when all you got is these four walls
it's not hard to feel so small
all she wanted was to be enough
all she wanted was to be enough
so what does it take?
maybe it's not too late
no one heard her when she said

 

maybe i'm better off dead
if i was would it finally be enough
to shut out all those voices in my head?
maybe i'm better off dead
better off dead!
did you hear a word
hear a word i said?
this is not where i belong
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone
gone, gone
this is not where i belong
you're gonna miss me when i'm gone 

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this is one of my favorite sleeping with sirens songs ever. *sings this while sister stares at me like a i'm a psycho* and yes, i like them. i know, it sounds not very much like me, but my sister and her friend listen to them ALL THE TIME so i figured i would listen to them and NOW THEY'RE MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. please send help. or cake icing, i want that now. 

so who's excited for warped tour? idk if i'm going but i mean i have a friend who has an iphone and is going and b) we can facetime until it's over so yeah. 

ALSO who wants do do a mini chat on monday? monday's going to be a long day, i have to be transferred to a different hospital and then after everything's done and i'm all set up i'm going through chemo (which takes like six hours for it to get fully into my body) and i'm going to be bored so um yeah. 

kay i need to go so..... PEACE OUT THUG PUGS.

*****

song: better off dead by sleeping with sirens

photo: taken by izzy, edited by me. 

lyric shoots inspired by adi.