for once i get off my lazy butt and post something who knew it would happen

 
HEY LOOK WHO'S ALIVE

BUT FEELS LIKE SHE'S ABOUT TO DIE.

BUT STILL IS ALIVE. 

yeah i came back from the deep pits of youtube and medication.... fun fun fun!

oh and the pits of migraines from my sister blasting state champs and neck deep at full volume at TWO IN THE MORNING.
thanks a lot alexis. love ya too.

anyways, how is everyone? how was everyone's christmas?
life so far has been pretty good (for once..... wow a miracle who knew!!), i've been into sketching lately, would anyone like to see some of my drawings?
and hey look who hasn't attempted suicide in like two months whatttttttt
and for my christmas, it was.... meh. i got sick on christmas eve and i was still sick on christmas... but anyway, besides that, i got a new phone (!), some white converse (!!), and like fifteen pieces of band merch (!!!!!!!!!!!).

oh yeah the other day i had a dream that there was a spotify ad came on about condoms and std and I SWEAR IT'S A REAL AD I'VE HEARD IT LIKE FIVE TIMES TODAY KILL ME.
not sure why i shared that but i really don't care at this point as long as i'm posting something lol.

oh yeah go follow my instagram, because hey why the fuck not?
 aaaaand there goes my post being clean. great going, grace.

aaaaaand i think i'm done here.
peace.

~grace

just a random post filled with the songs i can't stop listening to at the moment #2

i'm in the mood to ramble about music so hey why not.

 
***

i'm not okay (i promise)- my chemical romance// better off dead- sleeping with sirens// fall out boy- where did the party go// twenty one pilots- isle of flightless birds// the summer set- boomerang// all time low- so long, and thanks for all the booze// pierce the veil- the sky under the sea// panic! at the disco- nine in the afternoon// paramore- ignorance// troye sivan- happy little pill// melanie martinez- mrs. potato head// twenty one pilots- we don't believe what's on tv// halsey- castle// panic! at the disco- girls/girls/boys// game over- falling in reverse// all time low- tidal waves// panic! at the disco- casual affair// pierce the veil- chemical kids and mechanical brides// panic! at the disco- nicotine//
///
so i've been into a p!atd kick. especially too weird to live, too rare to die. i know i already listen to them, but i've just been listening to more of panic!, you know?

brenDON IS MY BABY NO ONE TOUCHES HIM. *hisses*
ahem.
anyway.

so, very off topic thingy, with 2017 coming up, i won't be able to post much. i go to physical therapy every tuesday, regular therapy every thursday and monday, and i'm going to start going back to regular school on the 11th, and with a visit to my dad in florida for a week starting tomorrow, my schedule's going to be a living nightmare.

however, i will take some pictures on my florida trip, and i will schedule a post while i'm in florida and get it up.
they will be crappy though, so cringe warning on that post lol.

anyway, that's it! 
peace out dudes.
~grace~

(another) break???

 

yes, you read the title correctly. i'm taking another break.

i know, i know, you guys are probably like "what??? grace??? why like come on???" or whatever, but you guys don't know what happens during those breaks. okay well maybe i try and attempt suicide but thATS BESIDES THE POINT,. 

anyway, i'm thinking of whenever i'm going to take a break i'll explain why and when i'm coming back.

so the reason why i'm taking a break is because of... well, a few things:

~i've been waking up in extreme pain and oh my god guys EVERYTHING HURTS HELP. idk why it's happening. it could be something to do with my leukemia or something but i just don'T KNOW SOMEONE GIVE ME ANSWERS.

~also my one-year blogiversary is coming up, and i still need to plan for it oops. 

~there's also been a lot of.... family issues. my parents keep fighting over the phone, all 4 (yes, 4) of my siblings are fighting about parental custody and it's just too much for me to handle oh dear lord help.

but anyway, i'll probably be back around the week of thanksgiving, as for a) michael clifford's birthday is that week, b) my blogiversary, and c) one year of leukemia so.

anyway, while i'm gone, can you guys please suggest music for me to listen to? like any bands that yu think i would like or whatever? idk i just want some new music oops.

anway, that's all guys, see ya! :)

~grace~

just a random post filled with the songs i can't stop listening to at the moment #1

yes that was a long title i know i know. 

 

secondhand serenade-fall for you // fall out boy-american beauty/american psycho // my chemical romance-helena // twenty one pilots-message man // paramore-crushcrushcrush // sounds like harmony-smile! (i'm not okay) // we the kings-check yes juliet // all time low-oh, calamity! // sleeping with sirens-alone (feat. mgk) // breathe carolina-see the sky // my chemical romance-cancer // twenty one pilots-cancer* // pierce the veil-i'm low on gas and you need a jacket // dan and phil-the internet is here // the summer set-mona lisa // outlines-all time low // falling in reverse-bad girls club // we came as romans-glad you came

//

*yes, the twenty one pilots song "cancer" is a cover of mcr's "cancer." you're welcome. 

//

YESTERDAY MARKED 7 YEARS OF PHAN OK I'M SCREAMING.

yup.

so.

um.

what have you guys been listening to lately? i'm sorry i ask questions bc i'm lameeeee.

~grace~

30 random facts about me

wait..... grace hasn't died yet? holy crap.

yes everyone, i in fact have not died yet so that's good thing.

i'm bored so i'm doing a 30 facts about me thing so enjoy, i guess.

*

1. i speak in an australian accent. (explained below)
2. i wasn't born in america. i was born in australia. (i moved to the u.s. when i was.... three r four??)
3. i spam people with memes through text. i have over 200 memes in a folder on my phone called "memes".
4.  i chew on anything. pencils, pens, even my earbuds (which i'm chewing on rn.) i swear i'm half dog. 
5. when i was little i used to choke on water a lot. i still do that sometimes lol. 
6. my favorite food of all time is mac and cheese. (homemade, not the box stuff.)
7. i've actually never had a cavity before (bragging oops sorry.).
8. whenever a twenty one pilots song comes on and tyler starts rapping i start to lip-sync to it but i can't move my mouth fast enough. i freak out my sister sometimes doing that so if she's reading this then sorry alex. 
9. i haven't bought anything from hot topic since.... ever. i think the last thing i bought was a pair of knee-high rainbow socks as a birthday gift for my sister when i was in.... second grade? maybe third? idk hopefully my sister remembers if she's reading this....
10. i actually have never had a pet except for fish. my family had four fish, which were technically my sister's, and she named them bob, joe, princess, and phillip. i just called them fish 1, fish 2, fish 3, and fish 4 because i could never remember their names oops.
11. i've been to three different states in my lifetime, wisconisn (chEESE CHEESE CHEESEEE), texas, and flordia. 
12. cheese fries used to be my addiction. oh, and chicken nuggets. 
13. i watch old episodes of spongebob when i'm bored. *grabs guitar* *sings campfire song song*
14.  i let my sister practice her trumpet in my hospital room, yet i force her to go in a closet to practice because it reduces the headaches i get from off-key trumpet sounds. 
15. my top five favorite bands of all time are (in order): the summer set, five seconds of summer, all time low, my chemical romance, and breathe carolina (very good band, listen to them if you haven't already).
16. whenever i'm alone i start singing random song lyrics.
17. once i thought kellin quinn was a girl oops. xD idk why though.
18. i recently laughed so hard i peed my pants while watching this. 
19. if anyone plays taylor swift in front of me i'll just say "kill me now." bc ew pop music. 
20. 'thanks to you' by all time low is my favorite song at the moment (hence the lyrics above. ^^)
21. my skin is weird. sometimes if i forget to put on sunscreen i'll get burned very badly, but sometimes i'll get a tan and look like a effing mexican (sorry for anyone reading this who's mexican).
22. sometimes i'll wake up at two in the afternoon if i fall asleep late watching youtube or curled up in a ball under the sheets thinking about random stuff. (though today i woke up at eight because of my sister texting me with 'hey you i'm coming over in two hours')
23. when i was first diagnosed with leukemia one of my nurses asked me "what came first, the chicken or the egg?" and i was like, "I DON'T FRICKING KNOW LADY." xD
24. i've only screwed up a body part once, and that was almost a year ago at a field hockey game with izzy where i fell in a hole and screwed up my knee.
25. if i'm in public i will only wear tennis shoes, even if i'm wearing a dress. 
26. the five things under my hospital bed are my three ag dolls that i don't use (33, maryellen, and 43), a box of scrubs, and OH HEY THAT'S WHERE I PUT MY BOX OF PENCILS. 
27. i don't like the outdoors. at all. (i also have allergies so.)
28. i was born on january 20, 2006, and what's weird is that all of my siblings were born on the 20th of a different month, which each birthday two-three months apart. (my older brother was born on march 20, my older sister was born on may 20, my younger brother was born on july 20, and my baby sister was born on october 20.. very weird, huh?)
29. when i was younger i ate play-doh. (i think i was two and a half...?) i also ALMOST licked a laundry pac thing. (i was stupid when i was younger oops.)
30. i can't do a cartwheel. i've also never tried in the last year or two, and when i try i fall on my face. xD

*

HELLO FELLOW HUMANS! *waves*

i am in fact doing well, considering the fact i almsot died three weeks ago (fmlllll) but i haven't tried to attempt suicide in the past few weeks so that's an accomplishment there, eh? ;)

anyways, i plan on doing some more posting in the next few weeks so any suggestions would be greattttt.

k i'm going to leave now bye.

~grace~

thoughts during chemo #6

oh for those who are wondering i get most of these lyrics from pintrest. it just came to me that i don't give links back lol rip me.

seven thirty in the morning and i woke up to my sister yelling "outlines" by all time low out the window at an old lady help.
***

•  how does kellin quinn keep his hair looking amazing? like how????
• why was that monster lady in the 'don't threaten me with a good time' only seen in silhouette? 
• why does my sister have to be here? like i can get she's trying to spend time with me but i mean???? can't i be alone for a day????
• why do i get spammed with texts so often? JUST BECAUSE I DON'T ANSWER DOESN'T MEAN I'M NOT ALIVE. 
• will the summer set be coming to maryland for their "made for you" tour thing? (btw for those who are wondering i follow them on instagram so yeah.)
• why am i obsessed with falling in reverse now?
• why won't robby get sponsored by monster?
• why do periods exist?
• I JUST WANT A REGULAR CHEESEBURGER IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK????
• why do i suck at art?
• why do almost all of the songs off of fob's album "from under the cork tree" (btw my fave fob album who's with me.) have long titles? 
• why won't robby feature my answers for his question things?
• why do i ship stevonie (steven + connie) on steven universe?
• why do i also ship kohnnie (johnnie guilbert + kyle david hall)?

***

WHAT'S UP PEOPLE I'M ALIVE! *thumbs up in approval*

and look, a post with no cussing in it! where did this come from? xD

and you'll never guess what happened yesterday.

i became obsessed with falling in reverse. idk why either okay okay. my sister was just like, "hey listen to some falling in reverse" and i did and HoLy FuCk (well there goes this post  being clean lol.) they're amazing. 11/10, recommend them if you haven't listened to them already. :)

i'm in a chatty mood today so if you want to chat just drop me a comment. ;)

~grace~

(explaining stuff (again))

so i know a lot of my posts lately have been me explaining stuff but there's more to me than you really see. please know that i'm not trying to say that i'm a "special" child, but there's just a lot of stuff wrong with me. thank you. 

i also posted something like this on my google plus so yeah. 

***

okay, so a lot of you guys won't believe this, but i'm dyslexic. i know, you're thinking, "what????? but grace how do you post????? i'm confused dude?????" but in reality, even though i do post often, it's because i have all the time in the world to post, and my dyslexia makes it hard for me to post in a short period of time. when i post, i really mean whatever i say, because it's either all true or i spend HOURS trying to find a) the right words to say and b) just finding the letters on my keyboard to finish a word. blogging just really seems like a burden to me and i actually don't know why i even started.

the reason why my followers might have suspected something weird lately is because i put my blog on private for a few days..... and it's for a few good reasons. i wanted to see who would know that my blog's on private, and the grand total was zero, because it really feels like no one cares about me anymore. i also wanted to try and break away from the blog for a bit, but i didn't want it to collect pageviews and dust, so i just put it on private.

it's not that i care about you guys worrying about me (or whatever you guys do) or anything, oh dear lord no, i just really don't think i'm the right type for blogging. i'm such a troubled child and while i know it probably doesn't affect you guys in any type of way, it really does affect me in so many ways. living without a father figure in my family, plus my weird self, it makes it hard for me to just.... blog. i know, i know, i know, if you're thinking "so why are you telling us this now? why didn't you tell us when you came back from your break?", and the reason why i didn't tell you guys when i came back from my break was because i was hesitant to tell you guys, because i wasn't sure how you guys would react to me saying all that.

i'm literally crying as i re-read this post, it honestly just makes me sad that i go through all this shit day after day and you guys see me suffer through it. i just really wish there was a way to stop all this shit.

do you guys get what i'm saying? i know you most likely don't, but i just really needed to get that stuff out.

~grace~

"hello, you've reached the voicemail of makayla-grace, the ten-year-old who doesn't care about you. she's currently either spending time trying not to kill herself or yelling at her sister for being annoying. please leave a message after the beep, thank you." by panic! at the disco.

 

(aka: grace won't get herself together after fifteen hours of living hell yesterday so she will be posting a bunch of memes and stuff so be prepared for a spam)

 

GUYS I THINK THIS GIF WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME. 

 

wait nope this will. 

*SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF LUNGS* BURST INTO FLAMES SCREAM IN THE DARK I'M GONNA LIGHT UP THIS PLACE AND DIE IN BEAUTIFUL STARS TONIGHHHTTTTT. 

 

????????

 

i swear to god this is going to be my phone's homescreen okay.

 

*grace stamp of approval*

 

johnnie is dreamy okay........ *has small heart attack on how cute he is*

 

i think that's what my mom said to my sister when my sister went to warped tour without me *cries*

 

PETEPATRICKJOEANDYUGHTHEY'REAMAZING. 

 

okay like seriously.

DIS. IS. PERFECTION.

 

why this is my favorite line in that entire song, I HAVE NO CLUE BUT WHATEVER.

 

me when i got told the summer set wasn't playing in warped tour in my state.

 

i have literally no clue okay.

aaaannnnddd i will stop now before i spam your feed with memes GOODBYE.

the music tag (or whatever)

  

hola! i am in fact not dead, and even though i had to get stabbed in the shoulder with a needle multiple times yesterday/had to go through nine hours of fricking living hell, i'm not dead. this deserves some cake and confetti.

anyway, i'm bored so i decided to do the music tag thing.most of you guys probably know how this thing goes, so i'm just going to do it now.....

happy song// bring me the horizon-- we are possessed, we're all fucked in the head, alone and depressed.
don't threaten me with a good time// panic! at the disco-- i told you time and time again, i'm not as think as you drunk i am.
lost in stereo// all time low-- tattoos and a switchblade attitude, snakebite heart with bubble gum smile, sex and stereo, don't turn the radio dial.
better off dead// sleeping with sirens-- maybe i'm better off dead, if i was, would it finally be enough, to shut out all those voices in my head?
props and mayhem// pierce the veil-- does it even make a difference? when i'm sober i feel pain, cause we run under the stars, through cemetery backyards, celebrate the way the night hides scars.
fuck u over// the summer set-- said that i'm a douchebag, won't call back, the worst hangover you've ever had, felt so good at first, we knew that it could never last.
helena// my chemical romance-- what's the worst that i can say? things are better if i stay.
our lawyer made us change the name of this song so we wouldn't get sued// fall out boy-- it's just past eight and i'm feeling young and reckless, the ribbon on my wrist says 'do not open before christmas'.
king for a day (feat. kellin quinn)// pierce the veil-- hail mary, forgive me, blood for blood, hearts beating, come at me, now this is war..... fuck with this new beat.
jet black heart// five seconds of summer-- everybody's got their demons, even wide awake or dreaming, i'm the one that ends up leaving, make it okay.

***

and you just experienced a bunch of song lyrics from bands that can make little kids cry because of all the screaming in them excluding jet black heart but then again it makes me cry sometimes idk why though. so yeah. in the middle of the whole song lyric thing bulls in the bronx by ptv came on but i don't really like any of the lyrics in the song and the only part in the entire song i like is that guitar solo but well *shrugs*

anyway, i'm in a bit of a chatty mood today so if you guys want to talk for a bit you can. i might do something like this tomorrow (the chat thing) because i'll have more time then but pssh whatever.

also if you guys can answer this then, well, just do this for me that would be great okay bye.

also to add a challenge to the "fav band/s" thing you have to guess my favorite bands IN ORDER. *evil laugh*



~grace~

{we need to talk}

 

so i realized i've never really shared my feelings/how i really feel on here. i've been trying to keep this blog "sane", where i don't share my feelings on here. it's just i'm paranoid of revealing everything to the internet to everyone, which is why when i need to talk to someone i contact them privately. so here you go guys, i'm going to admit this all and get it out.

***

so as 99% of you guys know, i struggle with depression. i keep trying to cover it up in any type of way possible. back before i left in april and came back in june, i was trying to cover up my depression, and i thought it was working, but turns out it wasn't.

i'll admit it, i don't know how to comprehend with my depression or, anything, actually. no one understands me or what i've been going through, and i've been trying to get help but it hasn't been working. it honestly feels like i'm alone and nobody cares about me anymore. i just want to disappear. 

i'm honestly trapped in a bubble of depression and suicide and i can't escape it. my one year blogiversary is so close, but i don't feel like i can live to see it. i know you guys don't want me to kill myself,  but that really is what i want to do. i just don't belong anywhere, and i always keep trying to kill myself. 

so i guess this is it. (for the post.)

~grace~

(p.s. yes blogger is still acting funky for me. is anyone else having that problem? jw.)

memes and gifs and stuff #2

 

 prepare for the most random stuff ever in 3, 2, 1.....

  

have to repost this because it's true. *runs after fob wearing my sister's fob shirt*

 

i think this is what my mom thinks of me...

poor vic, not noticing that alex is choking. xD ooh yay a love like war is playing please excuse me while i fangirl in a corner.

  

my sister doesn't like the summer set so i almost did that to her...... damn i'm violent. xD

 

*melts because kellin is so cute and also because it's hot in here*

 

"is this the krusty krab?" "no, this is patrick!"

 

okay so with me it's like, i'm pale as a vampire but then in the sun i look like a fricking mexican i could be in ptv. 

 

but if dan is on fire, what's the point of his channel name?

 

*scans room* nO ONE CALLS MIKEY UGLY OR I KILL U. (god that sounded violent i really need to stop.)

 

you don't want to know.

***

hey so i guess i forced you to sit through that, eh? 

okay good. 

***

anyway, so band memes aside...... i want to tell you guys something.

PEOPLE TAKE MY SURVEY OKAY I NEED MORE RESPONSES. {click here} that would be great, thank you. 

okay byeeee. (netflix is calling me lol.)

~grace~

(p.s. sorry for not centering, blogger is acting funky for me r.i.p. me.)

idk what to call this.

  

hello and welcome to today's edition of "grace's shitposting" where grace will be randomly talking about the most random shit that comes to her mind in the next twenty minutes. 

*

okay i just realized why people don't really comment on here lol. (the swearing but pfft idc if i swear, it's my blog.)

brendom urie riding a kangaroo.

why can't i be part unicorn?

I'M THE NEW CANCER NEVER LOOKED BETTER. 

i want to see all time low but pfft they aren't coming so goddammit them.

I DIDN'T MEAN TO FUCK YOU OVER. 

apparently this should really be a karaoke party. 

if kellin quinn was a pokemon he would evolve from a kitten into, well, kellin quinn.

tacos and chocolate frosting.

so um i accidentally deleted pokemon go off of my phone and then got it again and i caUGHT A FRICKING PIKACHU USING A HACK SOMEONE FOUND I HAVE A PIKACHU HELL YEAH. 

also i really need a new phone. mine's slow and ugh it takes forever to turn on. anyone else have that problem?

*SINGS SWS AT TOP OF LUNGS* 

more band merch please that would be great. (i only have a 5sos tee so yeah.)

i'm fluent in unicorn.

merry christmas kiss my ass.

*

well that's it for today's edition of "grace's shitposting". stay tuned for the next edition! *thumbs up in approval*

***

kay wtf did i just type. 

ugh i posted more shit.

if any of you can count how many times i said "shit" in this post then you get some virtual tacos

yeah and i'm just going to fall asleep here so okay buh byeee. 

~grace~

the 30 song challenge thingy

 

because it's kick me and you can never go wrong with kellin saying the word "shit" ten times in the entire two and a half minute song. xD 

***
1) Your favorite song
FUCK U OVER THE SUMMER SET OKAY. (i'm sorry, it's brian and um yeah.)

2) Your least favorite song
any pop song, okay? just..... no. *shudders at thought of pop music*

3) A song that makes you happy
can i just say any song by the summer set? okay good. 

4) A song that makes you sad

wait..... what?

  5) A song that reminds you of someone

*thinks for twenty minutes* *comes up with nothing*

6) A song that reminds you of somewhere

back in 2014 when i was in austrailia and saw 5sos (that actually got me into them so thanks alex and kailee.) i guess any 5sos song reminds me of there. *shrugs*

7) A song that reminds you of a certain event

 i actually have no clue since my life is pretty much boring shit. xD

8) A song that you know all the words to

like all 115 songs on my spotify playlist.

9) A song that you can dance to

 there's a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven't figured it out yet by panic! at the disco.

 

let's just say that's how i dance lol. xD

10) A song that makes you fall asleep
*casually leaves answer blank.*


11) A song from your favorite band
i said above, fuck u over by the summer set.

13) A song from a band you hate
 *stares off into void*

  14) A song that no one would expect you to love .
 tough one...... most likely any halsey song, i guess?
 
15) A song that describes you
better off dead by sleeping with sirens. (i swear everything about that song describes me on a personal level so um yeah.)

16) A song that you used to love but now you hate
this is gospel by panic! at the disco. 

17) A song that you hear often on the radio
i don't really listen to the radio that much, since i have spotify/youtube, but the last time i did happy song by bring me the horizon came on like every time i was listening to the radio.

18) A song that you wish you heard on the radio

 if they ever played a ptv song on the radio...... i don't think that'll happen though.

19) A song from your favorite album
making me choose my favorite album WTF IS WRONG WITH THE PERSON WHO MADE THIS UP. 

20) A song that you listen to when you’re angry
what?

21) A song that you listen to when you’re happy

i listen to music for like 23 hours straight (or, you know, until i randomly fall asleep since i have nothing else to do to pass time lol.) so idk.

22) A song that you listen to when you’re sad

*blank answer*

23) A song that you want to play at your wedding

like, that's if i get married. i don't think i ever will. 

24) A song that you want to play at your funeral

can they play like every song off of my playlist that would be great thank you (yes, even kick me.) i also want to die wearing a choker and a band tee okay.

25) A song that makes you laugh

hell above by ptv because you get like two seconds into the song and there's screaming. xD (which is pretty much your typical ptv song, in my opinion.)

26) A song that you can play on an instrument

i can play lots of songs on guitar, so i'm only choosing one, and that's the acoustic version of for baltimore by all time low.

27) A song that you wish you could play

you really don't want to know. i have a whole list tacked up over my head right now so yeah.

28) A song in a foreign language that you like

i don't really listen to songs in foreign languages lol.

29) A song from your childhood

whoever made this up clearly wanted me to share my fucking childhood with everyone lol. 

30) Your favorite song at this time last year

 i actually forget, though i think it was an old fob song. (bc, you know, fob.)

***

hey look grace is actually alive holy shitballs.

so i got bored and decided to do this so yeah. 

okay byeeeeeee. 

~grace~ 

thoughts during chemo #5

 

okay i feel as if this song describes me on a personal level lol.

• why does melanie martinez have that creepy baby aesthetic in her songs?
• IS SNAPCHAT EVER GOING TO WORK ON MY PHONE?? (i'm sorry every single time i try to get on it my phone freezes up and crashes, most likely because my phone is old.)
• okay so why did i just notice that me one year blogoversary is three days after michael clifford's birthday?
• why can't it be christmas already? 
• can i get an air conditioner in here? my brain is like a melting popsicle and soon i'll be a zombie or something.
• would any of you guys like a sneak peek of the song i'm working on for my guitar? jw.
• why am i awkward?
• why do a lot of panic! songs have long titles? (lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off, the only difference between martyrdom and suicide is press coverage, there's a good reason these tables are numbered honey you just haven't figured it out yet..... etc.)
• can someone draw gerard way on my back with gel pens? that would be great.
• do you guys want to see another boring selfie of me? that's not in b/w? (or, possibly, with one of those snapchat filters if i can get it to work?)
• why is my sister trying to play her trumpet while i'm typing this? like come on, i know she's practicing for next year (she's going into high school.... like she's so old lol.) but seriously like wtf. (sorry if i sorta offended anyone in high school/plays the trumpet.... i'm like that. :/)
• am i ever going to meet mikey? or like just 5sos in general? 
• why do i like cheese?
• can i buy a shirt that looks like kellin quinn's "i pooped today!" shirt? (coincidentally a sws song is playing rn.)
• why does it seem like every single text message i send people has some type of band reference/lyric in it?

***

THERE'S A NEW PTV MUSIC VIDEO LIKE HOLY CRAP. that creepy hotel manager and the posters with "all time low/ sleeping with sirens missing" on them lol i swear to god i laughed so hard i scared the living crap out of my sister. xD 

*thumbs up in approval*

 

okay i'll leave before you guys get scared and unfollow me BYE.

{randomness #1}

 

i got some gel pens and my sister drew vic fuentes and kellin quinn on my shoulder with them. my sister is a good artist, let's just say that. 

*

goddammit mcr won't be getting back together. fuck gerard

*

why do i feel as if my blogging journey is more important than my real life? like seriously. 

*

MY ONE YEAR BLOGAVERSARY IS IN FOUR MONTHS WHO'S EXCITED. (well, i think i started it on november 22nd, idk i forget.)

*

so me, izzy, my sister, and bunch of my sister's friends/boyfriends are going to do a cover of king for a day and i swear i'm excited. i just need to try and make my voice NOT sound like a dying hyena. xD

*

i really want to see the movie "lights out" but i can't ugh.

*

on instagram this morning i saw a leaked phone number. it was.... get this.... KELLIN QUINN'S HOLY SHIT. i really want to call now, should i???? (which btw if you haven't yet you can go follow me @mggibson21 and i promise i'll post soon on there.)

*

mermaids.

*

i want to get my braces off so badly but i can't ugh help.

*

last night i was watching steven universe and i swear i saw rose's face/voice and had a fangirl attack.

***

so it is i.

hello. 

*waves awkwardly*

okay byeeeee. 

 

jk i'm not leaving just yet.

what did you think i would do? spray cheese whiz in my mouth?

okay i did that once when i was eight with my sister but still.

anyway...... okay i have nothing to talk about except I FOUND A PHOTO OF ATL AND PTV TOGETHER ON INSTAGRAM YESSSSSSSS. (the amazing things you find in instagram lol.) 

okay bye (no, i'm not joking this time.)

thoughts during chemo #4

shit i'm bored as hell so enjoy, i guess?

***

•  where's waldo?
• can i get a pet unicorn?
• why can't it be my birthday already? i can't wait six more months for it.
• why do i suck at sketching stuff? (i tried sketching kellin quinn once...... that didn't work out the way i wanted it to.)
• why does ptv scream so much?
• can i get a taco?
• why do i want to post one of my guitar covers on here? i mean i suck but still.
• why didn't the summer set play at warped tour?
• why do i want to make my own music video of king for a day?
• why do i sound/look like some emo child? i know i'm not really emo but still.
• WHY DID MCR CHANGE EVERYTHING TO MCRX LIKE COME ON GERARD.
• can someone get me a taco???? please???? i like tacos.
• why do mermaids have problems?
• are unicorns jerks?
• why do i keep missing calls on oovoo? i know i'm not on oovoo that much but still.
• where can i get a ptv and/or sws phone case? i want one for my phone reallly badly
• should i do a post on my google search history? i mean phil lester did it.
• why does kellin quinn sound like shit when he's performing live? like why?

***

anyway, so how's your week been going so far? for me, i haven't tried to do suicide on myself this week so i guess that's an accomplishment. also i started stalking amazon for some stupid reason lol. xD

sorry this post is so short, i'm sorta busy today but whatever.

~grace~

 

memes and gifs and stuff.

so i was just like this on google:

 

when i decided to post just random memes and stuff, so enjoy, i guess?

***

 

i swear i love my little screaming mexican dudes okay. VIC IS MINE I'M SORRY IZZY.

 

okay i have to admit, this is me. 

 
that is legit my phone's homescreen okay.


look at mikey back there oml lol.


i want tacos. can someone send me a taco? that would be GREAT thanks.

BURSTINTOFLAMESSCREAMINTHEDARKI'MGONNALIGHTUPTHISPLACEANDDIEINBEAUTIFULSTARSTONIGHT.

(if anyone can guess the song you get a shout-out lol.)


how i feel about don't panic it's longer now. xD

***

so i think this is it.

OH SHIT BEFORE I FORGET i made a survey, so you can go here and take it.

also before i go, i want to tell you one more thing.

i'm not as think as you drunk i am.

yes i had to use a p!atd line don't judge it's brendon.

~grace~

20 random facts about me

 

favorite ptv song

1.  my middle name is hazel
2. i have the habit of pointing out some stupid things at random times
3. i also have the habit of having my earbuds up too loud. once my doctor heard "kick me" from my earbuds omg
4. if you make me choose a favorite the summer set song i kill you. (i'm sorry brian is my heart and soul okay.)
5. i once tried to do the running man and i fell on my face, which leads to proof i can't dance.
6. i also once watched an episode of the walking dead with my sister and i had thoughts about the zombie apocalypse for a week.
7. i used to have a pet hamster named bob before he crawled under my friend's bed and died there. 
8. for some random reason, i hate being called makayla. so you can call me pretty much anything you want, but don't call me makayla, please.
9. i have purple hair well it's actually a wig but who cares lol
10. 'happy song' by bring me the horizon reminds me of my days as a cheerleader when i was like eight or nine.
11. i prefer dan howell over phil lester.
12. i once saw someone have an asthma attack in gym. 
13. i'm 5'2 (lol i'm tall.)
14. i want to use a youtube channel but i can't use one until i'm 13. *pouts in corner*
15. i sometimes binge on youtube at two a.m. and fall asleep watching johnnie guilbert mess around with tampons.
16. people call me "emo" a lot.
17. people say my voice sounds like taylor swift's voice.
18. all of the photos on my phone are either a) pictures of brendon urie riding stuff or b) dan/phil memes.
19. i have the iphone 4 and may be getting the 5 for my birthday.
20. i celebrate michael clifford's birthday every year. because it's mikey and he's my boyfriend. *hugs him tightly*

***

so i crawled out of the dark and posted. i deserve a gold sticker. 

i also deserve another gold sticker for joining a collab blog! so you can just view it here and yeah.

also give me numbers, i don't care (also i want to answer these lol.)

 

~grace~

yessss props and mayhem is playing yesssss.