{we need to talk}

 

so i realized i've never really shared my feelings/how i really feel on here. i've been trying to keep this blog "sane", where i don't share my feelings on here. it's just i'm paranoid of revealing everything to the internet to everyone, which is why when i need to talk to someone i contact them privately. so here you go guys, i'm going to admit this all and get it out.

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so as 99% of you guys know, i struggle with depression. i keep trying to cover it up in any type of way possible. back before i left in april and came back in june, i was trying to cover up my depression, and i thought it was working, but turns out it wasn't.

i'll admit it, i don't know how to comprehend with my depression or, anything, actually. no one understands me or what i've been going through, and i've been trying to get help but it hasn't been working. it honestly feels like i'm alone and nobody cares about me anymore. i just want to disappear. 

i'm honestly trapped in a bubble of depression and suicide and i can't escape it. my one year blogiversary is so close, but i don't feel like i can live to see it. i know you guys don't want me to kill myself,  but that really is what i want to do. i just don't belong anywhere, and i always keep trying to kill myself. 

so i guess this is it. (for the post.)

~grace~

(p.s. yes blogger is still acting funky for me. is anyone else having that problem? jw.)

memes and gifs and stuff #2

 

 prepare for the most random stuff ever in 3, 2, 1.....

  

have to repost this because it's true. *runs after fob wearing my sister's fob shirt*

 

i think this is what my mom thinks of me...

poor vic, not noticing that alex is choking. xD ooh yay a love like war is playing please excuse me while i fangirl in a corner.

  

my sister doesn't like the summer set so i almost did that to her...... damn i'm violent. xD

 

*melts because kellin is so cute and also because it's hot in here*

 

"is this the krusty krab?" "no, this is patrick!"

 

okay so with me it's like, i'm pale as a vampire but then in the sun i look like a fricking mexican i could be in ptv. 

 

but if dan is on fire, what's the point of his channel name?

 

*scans room* nO ONE CALLS MIKEY UGLY OR I KILL U. (god that sounded violent i really need to stop.)

 

you don't want to know.

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hey so i guess i forced you to sit through that, eh? 

okay good. 

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anyway, so band memes aside...... i want to tell you guys something.

PEOPLE TAKE MY SURVEY OKAY I NEED MORE RESPONSES. {click here} that would be great, thank you. 

okay byeeee. (netflix is calling me lol.)

~grace~

(p.s. sorry for not centering, blogger is acting funky for me r.i.p. me.)